The 7th things i hate the most that you do,
is that you made me love you.
Saturday, March 27, 2010 9:40 PM


I don't fucking care, no.

Shove a stick, or if you would, two of 'em up your ass and fucking saunter around like some fucking nutjob.

Don't let me remind you how Karma never fails to come back and bite you hard in your lovely ass.

Well. I guess you just never do learn.

I don't know why I'm so pissed right now but I am and today just isn't my day and if you would like to read more controlled and more mature (maybe) posts then please head on down to my tumblr.

The best thing is, I don't even know why I am feeling this ball of fury right now although I probably have an inkling why I do and I just don't really want to admit it right now you know Denial isn't just the name of a river in Egypt and yes I realise I am rambling and there are hardly any full stops or even commas in this post.

Screw it lah.

And mind you I seldom use lah in this blog.

Me THINKS.

And I think I've calmed down considerably after typing that chunk of obscenely vulgar post which is rather unlike me and oh I like the words iridescent and incandescent.

This, is randomness at play when your emotions fly off the handle.

Nuthead here is off to do her Econs homework because she doesn't wanna screw up econs like how she's screwed up the past 2 years of her fucking life and more importantly, she doesn't wanna screw up her future like how she ONLY RECENTLY realised she did.

Psychiatrist no more.

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Thursday, December 24, 2009 11:20 PM


Merry Christmas everyone! :D

I'm actually residing on tumblr most of the time, so if you're a nosey person or a stalker(nobody would wanna stalk me anyway), head on over to sweetlyvenomous.tumblr.com to find me. [:

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Tuesday, October 27, 2009 9:02 PM


I guess I'm really numb now.

I realise that I could've passed Physics. Like fuck, seriously, I'm not gonna go into the "If Onlys" but judging from my answers I knew I could've passed.

No use crying over spilled milk.

Essay Component - 37/60

Compre Component - 40/50.

The essays component pulled my overall LA marks down by quite a lot.

HAHA. Went to delifrance with SHINGZ, Yan Ci and Hillary today. After we got back our A Math papers we were planning to go stuff ourselves with food later. I was quite hyped up and we wanted to go eat Sakura buffet at first, then Sakae buffet. We kept changing our minds and we were like the only ones in class so happily talking away. -.- WELL. LIFE STILL HAS TO GO ON NO MATTER WHAT.

The Delifrance student meals HAVE lots of room for improvement. It was quite funny, the special beef burger that shingz ordered looked like a Kid's meal. And my breaded fish dory pasta tasted disgustingly horrible. The fish had that distinct fish smell. *shudders* Interestingly, Hillary's breaded fish taste better. Delifrance has NO standard man. I miss their cafe food, the baked potato and tuna croissants. Their bistro is really way below par. They shouldn't have branched all the delifrance chains to bistro.

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Monday, October 26, 2009 6:19 PM


This morning I was tellin Sijin how I don't really like KPOP because their songs usually have cliched lyrics and the only plus point is their catchy tunes. I said JPOP is so much better because they have really poetic lyrics and the singers have real talent. LOL. I came to that conclusion after listening to this techno-ish song by Super Junior which caused me to have a headache.

LOL. BUT I SHALL TAKE BACK WHAT I SAID. I was listening to I Hope by F.T Island with my new super cheap earphones and I realise that the lyrics are really meaningful.



Days went by, months went by
But there was no contact from you
Tears fall, my heart aches
No, it’s only for a moment
It’s not, it’s not, it’s not
Only to appease me but
The space you left only gets bigger

Even if I look at you again, you’re you’re my love
Look at it a hundred times, I’m I’m you’re love
You’re my love that heaven made
You only lost your way for a moment
Even if I’m born again, I only hope for you
Even if I love again, I only hope for you
You will return, you will return
Because there’s no me without you

After saying you love me
Where exactly did you run off to?
Leaving me (Oh oh oh oh oh)
My two hands you held and also our promise
How can you leave, abandoning me?

It’s a dream, it’s a dream, it’s a dream
I trick myself
It’s sad that I’m by myself

Even if I look at you again, you’re you’re my love
Look at it a hundred times, I’m I’m you’re love
You’re my love that heaven made
You only lost your way for a moment
Even if I’m born again, I only hope for you
Even if I love again, I only hope for you
You will return, you will return
Because there’s no me without you

I thought that all this was only a nightmare
I hope that I will wake up from this dream

After today passes and I open my eyes tommorow
I hope that this dream is not reality, oh
That all this is a hateful dream, not reality
I hope, I hope for you
I still want you

Even if I look at you again, you’re you’re my love
Look at it a hundred times, I’m I’m you’re love
You’re my love that heaven allowed
You only lost your way for a moment
Even if I’m born again, I only hope for you
Even if I love again, I only hope for you
You will return, you will return
Because there’s no you without me

I pray every night
For my misery, not my happiness
That you won’t love any other than me
It can’t be anyone other than you
My heart only asks for you
It will never change
Even if I am born again, I hope for you

Even if I’m born again, I only hope for you
Even if I love again, I only hope for you
You will return, you will return
Because There’s no me without you




They're translated into English.

And now, my super cheap kinda bimbotic new headphones bought at Gramophone today.

$6.95. WHAT A STEAL RIGHT! The plus point is they're the in-ear kind and they're heavy bass earphones. I think the heavy bass function make the beats more pronounced. HAHA. Sound quality is pretty good too, but my pink audio-technica ones are still the best. Well, obviously, that cost me around 30 bucks. AND THIS IS A KOREAN PRODUCT. :D I like korean products. :D



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Sunday, October 25, 2009 10:21 PM


Went to the rooftop garden with Lame Friend just now. I had a really heart-to-heart conversation with LF, talking about life, changes, and rather personal issues.

I asked LF if I was a bad person for letting the fact that he was poor bother me in the past. I didn't like it but I didn't exactly mind it either. It's just that over time that little fact bothered me more and more.

LF said, "It is an instinct in you. You can't help it if it were an instinct. Despite that fact, you still gave it a chance didn't you? You didn't let it prevent you from being open and giving chances.".

I do not deny the fact that I am materialistic, but it's not as if I must have a rich boyfriend/husband or whatever. I don't mind if the guy is middle class/poor, depending on your definitions of them really. But what I do mind is if the guy is self-sufficient. Irregardless of how much money he has, as long as he can provide for himself and need not rely on girls to do so, I am perfectly fine with that.

There are moments when I feel really awful for not liking the fact that your financial situation is not exactly as sound as I would like it to be. But then again, I didn't let that blind me and make me prejudiced against you.

Money is not everything, but if you're penniless and you don't even have an ounce of dignity in you, you're fucking worthless.

Okay, that was harsh but that still doesn't mean that I don't think you're a loser.

"Loser" is not a term I use loosely, if I've ever used it on someone before that is.

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11:38 AM


Love is part and parcel of life. Other than love for family and friends, I can say I've only ever loved once when it comes to romantic love.

Being in love, and in return be loved, is an amazing feeling. It makes your whole being light up and feel alive.

Falling out of love on a two-sided aspect is sad, but well that's life.

Unrequited love, on the contrary, sucks balls.

Yes, that was crude, but you get the drift.

In retrospect, it's ironic how once upon a time, I used to say I don't do love. And honestly, if I hadn't re-read my archives on this blog I wouldn't even know that I've ever thought that way before. I used to think that love was overrated and all that shizz. I'm sure there are some girls who aren't keeled over with the novelty of love and still think that love is overrated.

Honestly, "love" is overrated, real love isn't.

Go figure. How many guys and girls out there profess to love their significant others when they have not even known each other for a long time? I'm not just talking about teenagers, but adults as well. I don't believe love is possible if you don't know the person well. By well, I mean thoroughly, you know almost all of the person's habits and flaws. Most of all, you accept the person and still love him/her in spite of the flaws. Irrefutably, there's a limit of tolerance to the flaws. When you love, you try your very best to put up with the flaws and not run away at the first sign of them. But then again, there are those who are such skilled escapists. Some can argue that if you really really love, you would put up with the flaws no matter what. Consider this then, if your significant other has no control of his libido and cheat on you every so often, would you put up with that? Say, would you put up with a person who takes out his rage on you through physical abuse?

Touche.

Just my two cents worth on what little I know about love, of course. For those who disagree, don't take offense. (: It's a lazy sunday morning and I'm enjoying life with a cuppa good coffee, and of course, needless to say, I'm utterly bored. (:

“I’m not into appearances. I like flaws, I think they make things interesting.”

the truth about forever, Sarah Dessen


“To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides.”
— David Viscott (via
thresca) (via quote-book)

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Saturday, October 24, 2009 6:06 PM


Yesterday was awesome! ♥

We went to Hort Park in the morning and walked around the whole place looking for the objects in the paper given to us. From Hort Park we went to the Hilltop walk, Henderson Waves? Kinda scary, we were almost as tall as the hdb buildings around, maybe even taller. Also the bridge is all made of metal and if you looked down, you could see the trees below you through the metal grills. From Henderson Waves we walked to Mount Faber then vivoooo.

Super, super exhaustive. We played some games along the way, pretty fun.

All in all, most of the games yesterday was fun, especially the modified dog and bone game. Yi Jie's stint was super funny. :D Our main aim was supposedly to snatch the ball and kinda do a home run, but in the end we ended up snatching the opponents' sashes to kick them out of the game. LOL.

3 way captain's ball was crazy.

The food was below expectations, but well, at least it's bento.

During campfire singing session Mr Sng joined us. And yes I ended up beside him, holding hands with him and putting my arm around his shoulders. Kinda awkward, but still fun nonetheless.

Mr Sng's gonna leave Dunman High soon, in a few months' time. ]:

I think almost everyone in Dunman High feels this special connection to Mr Sng, because we can feel that he really cares and is not simply carrying out his duties as a principal.

Stank like mad yesterday, should've brought my body mist.

Singing sessions were fun and nostalgic, brought me back to the sec one days. And singing 知足 by 五月天 repeatedly reminded me of things I've been trying to forget, or rather, push to the dark recesses of my mind. We sing this every year during level activities, and everytime it makes me nostalgic. But yesterday, even more so. One year back, the song stirred up only nostalgic feelings in me, but yesterday, it's so much more than just nostalgia.

It's sadness. Plain and simple. That heart wrenching feeling surfaced again yesterday.

如果我爱上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐不是为我
会不会放手其实才是拥有

我对你还是念念不忘
I'm not okay, but it's okay. Contradicting yes, No matter how I feel, the Earth still revolves around the sun. The Sun still rises from the East and sets in the West every single day. Nothing changes, life still goes on. I got to learn to make the best out of everything, maybe I can't stop liking you, but I can make a difference by being happy.



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the girl who learnt


theresa
Hello, my name is THE-RE-SA. Not Tree-sa. (: I find little kids freak-ing adorable. (:

You're vain, your games, you're insecure, you love me, you like her.


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  • She's 15 and loves music, her doll, Brendon, romance novels, chick flicks and the sea.

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